How I 'Became' Anorexic

I wish I could say that I just ‘became’ anorexic but that’s not the case. But I do know when I first ‘met’ Ana.  I was ten years old, and I was well fat. I wanted to lose weight and got the great idea of not eating and over exercising. Luckily this never happened, it was only a thought. But when I was twelve, I turned those thoughts into actions.

My family was very negative about my weight and would make mean comments. I guess you could say I just wanted to make them proud. Usually I only ate around 500 calories a day and worked out for about three hours. I lost about twenty pounds. I started to black out as well as faint almost daily. At the time my parents thought it was just harmless loss of baby fat and commented about how good I looked. This just fueled my eating disorder. I started a stricter diet but that led to binging. At the time I didn’t gain any weight.

When I started school my friends also commented about my body. But, then they saw what I ate. My friend said it looked as if I was anorexic but I knew she was joking. Even though I didn’t think I was anorexic, I researched it anyways. That’s when I realized I was anorexic; almost all the symptoms matched. I was nervous and eventually told my parents. They were not that educated on the subject so they did not seek help. Anyways I didn’t need help. I was able to recover in February of 2012. I gained back all the weight I had lost.

I got depressed about my weight again and I had a relapse. That was June of 2012. In July of the same year, I created this blog to aid me with my weight loss. Now it is October of 2012 and I’m still trying to lose weight.

All I have to say is, ‘Sticks and stones may break my bones but worlds will cause me to starve myself.’ Think before you say.

Stay Strong

James