I wish I could say that I just ‘became’ anorexic but that’s not the case. But I
do know when I first ‘met’ Ana. I was ten years old, and I was well
fat. I wanted to lose weight and got the great idea of not eating and over
exercising. Luckily this never happened, it was only a thought. But when I was
twelve, I turned those thoughts into actions.
My family was very
negative about my weight and would make mean comments. I guess you could say I
just wanted to make them proud. Usually I only ate around 500 calories a day
and worked out for about three hours. I lost about twenty pounds. I started to
black out as well as faint almost daily. At the time my parents thought it was
just harmless loss of baby fat and commented about how good I looked. This just
fueled my eating disorder. I started a stricter diet but that led to binging.
At the time I didn’t gain any weight.
When I started school my
friends also commented about my body. But, then they saw what I ate. My friend
said it looked as if I was anorexic but I knew she was joking. Even though I
didn’t think I was anorexic, I researched it anyways. That’s when I realized I
was anorexic; almost all the symptoms matched. I was nervous and eventually
told my parents. They were not that educated on the subject so they did not
seek help. Anyways I didn’t need help. I was able to recover in February of
2012. I gained back all the weight I had lost.
I got depressed about my
weight again and I had a relapse. That was June of 2012. In July of the same
year, I created this blog to aid me with my weight loss. Now it is October of
2012 and I’m still trying to lose weight.
All I have to say is,
‘Sticks and stones may break my bones but worlds will cause me to starve
myself.’ Think before you say.
Stay Strong
James
