Friday 4 January 2013

Stressed Out

This post is going to be very personal.

Right now I am so stressed out because of my friend Erin. I just want to say we are not dating or anything, we are simply friends. In September of 2012, I started to notice that she kept making comments about people’s weights and about how fat she thought she was. I was worried so I tried telling her that she was beautiful and didn’t need to lose weight. She didn’t believe me. I thought/hoped that it was just a phase.


I believe in November she asked me something that felt like a stake through the heart. She asked if I had any tips to lose weight. Yes I do have a lot of weight loss tips but are they safe? No! For god sakes my heart has almost stopped on more than one occasion! Immediately I gave her a hug. I can’t tell you how sad I felt. I am not joking when I say that I almost cried. I want no one to ever endure the torture that I went through. Erin is such a sweet, lovely girl and she does not deserve something evil like Anorexia.


After she asked me, I asked my mom for advice. I told her I was afraid that Erin was developing an eating disorder. My mom waved it off and told me that is her business and not to worry about it. Well what she said was not what I did. I started to watch her during lunch and noted that she ate smaller portions than she did the year before.


A few days later, I decided to talk to my teacher Mr. Anderson. Mr. Anderson knows that I have been struggling with an eating disorder for over a year now. I told him that Erin had asked me for weight loss tips and that she kept saying how fat she was. He promised that he would talk to Erin and not mention my name.


Call my paranoid, call my crazy but I don’t care. Anorexia took so much from me and I want no one to ever go through the hell I went through.


James


*Names have been changed to protect the individuals privacy.

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